For His Glory and Our Good: Selah

"We ought to celebrate the positive glorious gifts of God, but the worth of God shines in a powerful way to the world when in the midst of suffering we still don't curse God but say

'the Lord gave and the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.'"

~John Piper~

In July the Lord gave us our sweet Daphne.

18 Days ago the Lord took her away from us before we ever got to meet.

My heart is broken.

My heart is angry.

My heart HURTS.

But I know that His plans are far {GREATER}

than anything I can fathom.

And so in my

brokeness

anger

HURT

I will bless His name. I will praise Him. I will SING.

I was blessed by the words of a friend recently.

They said:

"Just think, 8 months in your belly was all she needed. Now she's in Heaven with our God. She never had to experience the pain and ugliness that this world has to offer."

My first reaction was:

I DON'T CARE! I WANT HER NOW!

But then I have to think...

My deepest desire in life -as a mother- is to protect my children from the pain and ugliness in this world.

That they would seek Christ and know a deeper joy.

Daphne has that!

She knows that joy better than I.

She not only seeks Christ,

She {SEES} Christ.

In all His Glory.

She praises Him now as I write this.

She knows Him and knows what prize is awaiting us.

I'm intrigued by this quote.

"As soon as a baby enters the world, the baby is immediately introduced to pain. It is somewhat symbolic that life begins with a cry."

~R.C. Sproul~

I never had the joy of hearing my sweet Daphne cry.

But knowing that she never has to cry and never has to experience pain in any form is an incredible comfort to

my mommy heart.

I miss her so deeply.

Each night as I write her little notes I can smell her sweet scent.

{She smelled like cinnamon. The sweetest cinnamon.}

I lay awake thinking about all the things I wanted to
do with her
show her
teach her.
All the kisses I would have given her.

I think about the moments that I longed for just watching Eden play with her and love her.

I think about how much Evan loves her and all the things he would have done with her.

Then I think about the
Unfailing Love
that Christ is pouring over her.

How can I compete with that?!

This song that I attached has given me a lot of peace.
It was shared with me by a dear friend.
It's a simple reminder that while I
{instinctively}
think nobody can love my baby the way can,
we serve a God who loves us far beyond our imagining.
And His love for Daphne isn't anything less.

While I long for my sweet girl to be in my arms

and I wish I could wake up to a reality where

{NONE}

of this were real,

I must own this pain.

I must accept this horrible nightmare as my reality.

I must have

{HOPE}

that through my brokenness and hurt

my God has a great purpose for my sweet girl with Him.

And I can't wait for the moment that I get

to see what amazing things He has for her.

I LONG for the day I hold her again.

For the moment I see her sweet, beautiful face.

My heart cries

~COME QUICK, LORD! I WANT MY BABY!~

because I'm impatient

But I'm also anxious to see what path the Lord has for us here. What children He blesses us with.

What amazing things he will do through our loss of our sweet

Daphne Grace.

I already see mountains moved. I already see hearts touched.

Hearts that I never thought I would see changed.

God has absolutely

{DESTROYED}

our picture of what we wanted in life.

But ALL for His Glory and our good.

Praise Him for these miracles.

Praise Him for our miracle in Daphne.

She has ROCKED this world

and never even had to

experience it.

Take those perfect little toes and

Dance with Jesus, Sweet Daphne.

You. Are. Healed.

"Joy in affliction is rooted in the hope of resurrection, but our experience of suffering also deepens the root of that hope."

~John Piper~

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