Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anxiety. Show all posts
Friday, March 25, 2011
Decisions...
Friday, March 25, 2011
"No sensible decision can be made any longer without taking into account not only the world as it is, but the world as it will be. . .." - Asimov
I hate making decisions.
I can't make a decision without affecting everyone around me.
My decisions affect my husband, my daughter, my family, my friends... you get it.
That's a lot of pressure!
How will my choices affect my immediate lifestyle?
How will my choices affect how my life is in 10 years?
I want to do what's best for my family, and right now, that could mean a few things.
I love being home with my sweet baby girl. She makes my heart smile everyday
{in spite of the crankiness and tantrums}
And my heart is heavy with a conviction to be home and nurturing my children {eventually there will be more :)}
But I also know that, financially, staying home isn't a feasible reality.
How do I decide to give up on the calling that I feel the Lord has placed in my life, for money?
-and in the same breath-
How do I -selfishly- chose to stay home knowing that I could be contributing to our livelihood?
I'm so glad, in moments like these, that God is sovereign and I am not.
I know that "He knows the plans He has for us." - and for that I praise Him.
I know that all things that happen in this crazy life are for His Glory and Our Good.
So my prayer for now is that I could rest in the mystery of all the things I don't understand.
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Monday, February 28, 2011
Sometimes I wonder "Why?!"
Monday, February 28, 2011
Lately things are happening and all I can say is "Why?!"
And mostly "Why all at once?!"
Why does it have to be so hard to be away from friends? Why does it always seem that when one good thing happens a million "bad" things happen.
Why, when I'm worried most about income and finding a job or staying home and trying to make money at home, does our rent get raised?
Why, when I finally humble myself to look for assistance financially because we are just barely getting by, do we get denied that assistance.
The Lord is doing something in my my life and all I can do right now is ask, "WHY?!"
And He reminds me...
For His Glory and Our Good.
"It's hard to find hope in the unseen, but I have peace in knowing it will find me."
And mostly "Why all at once?!"
Why does it have to be so hard to be away from friends? Why does it always seem that when one good thing happens a million "bad" things happen.
Why, when I'm worried most about income and finding a job or staying home and trying to make money at home, does our rent get raised?
Why, when I finally humble myself to look for assistance financially because we are just barely getting by, do we get denied that assistance.
The Lord is doing something in my my life and all I can do right now is ask, "WHY?!"
And He reminds me...
For His Glory and Our Good.
"It's hard to find hope in the unseen, but I have peace in knowing it will find me."
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