For His Glory and Our Good: Decisions...

Friday, March 25, 2011

"No sensible decision can be made any longer without taking into account not only the world as it is, but the world as it will be. . .." - Asimov

I hate making decisions. 

I can't make a decision without affecting everyone around me.

My decisions affect my husband, my daughter, my family, my friends... you get it.

That's a lot of pressure! 

How will my choices affect my immediate lifestyle?

How will my choices affect how my life is in 10 years?

I want to do what's best for my family, and right now, that could mean a few things.

I love being home with my sweet baby girl. She makes my heart smile everyday

{in spite of the crankiness and tantrums}

And my heart is heavy with a conviction to be home and nurturing my children {eventually there will be more :)}

But I also know that, financially, staying home isn't a feasible reality.

How do I decide to give up on the calling that I feel the Lord has placed in my life, for money?

-and in the same breath-

How do I -selfishly- chose to stay home knowing that I could be contributing to our livelihood?

I'm so glad, in moments like these, that God is sovereign and I am not.

I know that "He knows the plans He has for us." - and for that I praise Him.

I know that all things that happen in this crazy life are for His Glory and Our Good.

So my prayer for now is that I could rest in the mystery of all the things I don't understand.

Decisions...