Sometimes life is just {WAY} too much. If one thing isn't going wrong it's something else. When that calms down {something else} goes wacky! {WHY?!} Why must there {always} be some sort of wild chaos wreaking havoc on life? To a huge extent I can honestly say I {HATE} the chaos! {It's. Not. Fair} But also I have to say... {it's perspective} {typically speaking} When we have a bad day it's usually because something didn't go quiiite right. We go to a restaurant {where people serve us} and our food doesn't come out to us just so... Our reaction: {FREAK OUT SESH!!!!} We make a plan for our day and how we need {want} things to happen and it doesn't go according to plan... Our reaction: {FREAK OUT SESH!!!} We sit down to our DVR to watch yesterday's episode of our favorite show {seriously?!} and it's not there... Our reaction: {Fall on the ground} {kicking and screaming} {like a two year old} having a {FREAK OUT SESH!!!!} Am I getting my point across? {PERSPECTIVE} No, I'm not going to give the guilt trip sermon about "Starving kids in Africa..." although it's true. My point is... {What REALLY matters?!} If your life truly is broken by these things that I just talked about then I have to say {You've got it preeeetty good} But I think the majority of us find ourselves caught up in this {go. Go. GO!!!!} society. We forget that {life. is. precious} We forget that nothing is promised us. Mommas: How often do you find yourself checking Facebook in a quick moment of free time while your kiddos quietly entertain themselves. {Don't feel bad! I'm soooo guilty!} or better yet... How often do we obsess over the laundry the dishes the dirty toilets the bills the dinner that won't just cook itself {I could go on for days} I caught myself this weekend {for the first time in a while, sadly} just staring at E and soaking up every little bit of her. Friends, I haven't felt that much peace in a {LOOOOONG} time! so again I ask... {WHY THE CHAOS?!} Why can't I always be content to just stare at and adore my beautiful daughter? Why can't we just be content to sit with our families {no technology included} and be together? Biggest reason... {FEAR} We're afraid of what might come up. We're afraid of the closeness that might occur. We're afraid to love {DEEPLY} because it might not be reciprocated. We {as a culture} FEAR closeness. We fear intimacy. I don't necessarily mean physical intimacy {cause let's be honest... our culture has nooo issues with that!} We fear the danger of allowing someone else into our {bubbles of "ME"} I'm a professional hider!! I like to keep my stuff {my stuff!} These last 3 months have shown me that I {CAN'T} live life alone. I need my family. I need my friends. but above all... I NEED my God. I might be able to hide from everyone around me... {which I'm reeeally good at} but I can't hide from the God that created me and gave me breath. He know's me intimately. He know's my fears. He know's my distractions. So what happens when we stop hiding? {GASP!!!} What happens when we let someone else in? {NOOOOO!!!} What happens {dare I say} when we're HONEST, not only with ourselves, but truly open and honest with those we love? {we're weak} {we're vulnerable} This is when we're made perfect. This is when we're molded into the image of God. This... my friends... is when we can truly honestly experience {LOVE}. So I encourage you to just {STOP} Stop hiding Stop being busy Stop finding excuses {just.be} Be with your children. Be with your spouse. Be with your loved ones. Be.With.God. Study Him. Desire Him. {Let.Him.Change.You} get rid of the junk that distracts you. {live the life that you've been given} cherish the blessings that surround you
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Okay... So... Things have been a liiiitle crazy... Okay... {ALOT} crazy. I've had so much on my mind and so much weighing heavily on my heart and absolutely {ZERO} time to sit down and write. This weekend is going to be a quiet restful {hopefully} renewing weekend and I plan to write... alot. So, please, be patient with me. I might even spoil you {cause I know what I write is soooooo interesting (not)} and make more than one post... So get ready... It's coming! Thank you for all of your continued prayers for our little family. We need and appreciate it so deeply.
